bloodybladez's Journal

guess what guys!
i am changing my journal....
my new journal (still on livejournal) is glitterpixzy
YAY!

crash and burn
well then.
i got accepted to college this week. which is def good. so why can't i be more excited about that.
whatever.
wednesday was the talent show which was tons of fun. and nathan lewis is a rock star whether he will admit to it or not.
HA!
im tired today. i guess i just got worn out. i should've eaten something at lunch. it would've helped.
i'm actually glad me and wayne arent doing anything tonight because..yeah. we see way to much of eachother. which no is not a bad thing. but everyone knows it can be alittle bit too much sometimes. that and we were both really tired and grumpy after play practice.
and ms. messina cried at footloose rehearsal today. i felt bad. but for once i was there and it was good.
but the mains werent there. which was very very bad.
BAD!
bessie and chris came over today for mommy's two day late birthday dinner. which was good.
me and chris fell asleep on the couches while bessie played guitar for daddy.
yum.
god. my brain is yelling at me to go to sleep. and my bladder is yelling at me to go pee.
but i am still typing. so i say screw you to both of them.
and now my tummy is hungry. WHY?
anywho. i almost started crying at the talent show cuz it made me think of madd. jeez. i dont get another madd. nope. no more madd. MADD!
hm.
i'm all emotional today. tonight...most of today.
im all weird...dunoo. really dont. hobos. i dont wanna be spazzy. but i am. and i dont like being a bitch. but i am. (and dont tell me im not...cuz i am)
and everything. i guess i am def glad it is spring break though.
nighty night.

college
yay! i got accepted to FGCU! finally got the letter. i guess i will spread the news tomorrow.
its weird. i guess its not as big of a deal to me as i thought it was. no jumping up and down or anything.
hm.
i dont know what to think.
think think think.
yes i am happy.
and i guess i am going to major in theatre. which is weird. cuz it is me.
i'll need to find someone to talk to about all that stuff.
and find out info on orientation.
and now i need to fill out bright futures.
and stuff.
oye.
and find out where i am going to live.
which may end up being at home/wherever i crash. ya know.
i tink wayne should move out.
if he even can.
i guess we will find out how that all goes.
weeeeooooeeeeooo...
and stuff. i am goignt to go see if a can apply for bright futures. AND STUFF!

dreams.
so.
this weekend was essentially fun.
friday was senior skip day..yay. waffle house and stuff.
and...then sat....LOTSA shopping with mommy.
got lotta stuff done that needed to be done. which makes me happy.
still wanna look for cowboy boots.
and stuff.
then today went to waynes and then came back here(with wayne along surprisingly considering he is sick...) and geri and her babies and husband and parents came over for dinner. which is always fun.
and then geri's dad, randal, and babies went home and geri and her mommy stayed and i went and dropped offf wayne..and by the time i got back they were getting out mommy's barbie and ken(notice how she only had one of each)
and that was cool...
and we lost one of her barbies gloves. which was sad.
and the week after next is spring vacay OMIGOODNESS!
jeez.
so much stuff so little time.
and i didnt get any april fool's jokes in today. bugger.

woooow
okay.
so last friday..nearly a week ago.
wayno and sierra got smashed. which was absolutely hilarious...until they both threw up. and i exiled myself off the porch onto the couch inside the house.
:nibbles on a funny shaped muffin roll:
anywho...this week was relatively fun i guess.
worked on waynes jacket ALOT!
so its coming along fairly well. and yeah.
so good stuff.
yummy.
uh. tomorrow...senior skip day/Des's bday. so mostly we are hanging out with Des and Josh. whish outta be fun.
which...ought to be fun.
anywho.
headbutts.
hmmmm.....
okay. easily distracted. i guess i am done.

adventurous day

to say the least..today was an adventure.

we went to the elementary school and helped the little kids draw that was fun. and then went back to school..then went to josh and des's and hung out there. and watched 24 hours in london. and then their dad and his gf..and gf's daughter showed up. and the dad and the gf went out. and we decided to go to McD's and then to the park...well then. so we went to the park. and ate our food...and then wandered around the fair. adn this was about eight something...and then we went back to the skatepark..where paul and some of his punk freinds were sitting at the picnic table. and...well we went and sat down. cuz whatever. we just go sit down at the damn picnic table if we fucking want to. and there was this dude...and he was like some dude with a ponytail..and he was like "you should leave" a couple of times and then was like "you are going to leave" and josh was like "i think thats a misdeamenor" cuz he was threatening us. and i mean we were on the fucking skate park...helloooo public property. so yeah. and paul winked at wayne to try to get him to leave. or whatever. so anyways. we were starting to leave the dickwad who was threatening us.,.and something got said..so Destiny turned around to go say something to him..and ya know you would figure he wouldnt hit a girl. but NO this fucktard pushed her. and then POOF pedro to the rescue he was pissed cuz this guy..who was more than likely selling drugs to paul/posse and was probably fucked up beyond measure...thought he had balls enough to push Des. and i was stopping wayne from getting involved. i cant deal with him getting in a fight. and currently the hairs on the back of my fucking neck are raised up...just fucking thinking about it.
jeeezus. and paul and his pussy self didnt even do shit when Des got pushed. god. fucktards.
ugh. that sucked. im just glad we walked away. cuz really..i cant deal with fighting i cant. i dont want any of my freinds to get sent to jail. because...ya know...yeah....most of us are adults now. so yeah......i feel like either exploding into tears or punching something. jeeeeeeeeezus.
and i mean...what i typed hear was just the gist of it. i cant rememeber all that happened. i just...ick. scary. yeah. sooo hmph.....UGH! and ash isnt online to talk to....well..there is really no one there to talk to....bother.
gotta go shower and read. and stuff. :sigh:

:sigh: dude...
okay.
so last night(and ALL Of yesterday) was pretty kickass....but yeah. i'm sure i will get more into that later.
oye.
so anyway....i slept over at waynes last night. he slept on the chaise lounge until the morning...when he came in and slept in his bed with me.
and while we were sleeping.. i had a dream..it was a good dream..which is probably why i am writing this.
so anyways..dream sequence
was at MADD camp/WoW/the movie 300...and i showed up on like the last day of madd..and wayne was with me and everything. and then i saw one of my guy freinds from madd who was also kinda someone i have been hanging out alot with here lately....and i ran and hugged him and then was sitting on his lap..and yeah.
and then wayne started coming down the stairs and so i just up off his lap...cuz well duh.
sigh.
and then i woke up. and i felt really really bad..because i was in bed with wayne and dreaming a good dream about another guy.
:sigh:
but i am not too worried about it.
because i always have weird dreams like that.
oh well bad charr.

lalalalalala
last night was the military ball. that was fun. we werent late! YAY! troy was being a trendsetter by dancing in the corner that was fun.
we had steak there. that was fun.
yay fun!
cha cha cha.
appearently the military ball was fun(i just reread what i typed...lots of the same phrasing)
so i spent the night at waynes house last night. because it was late by the time we got back to lehigh. i like sleeping there. it is comfy.
rawr.
me and mommy and daddy went out to pizza hut for dinner.
it was yummy.
lalalalalalala
tomorrow i take the SAT again..with hopes of getting another thirty points.
still waiting on FGCU. grrrr.
i dont like waiting it takes way to oooo LOOOOONG.
of course....you have to do alot of waiting in life.
hmph. i ahve to go add FGCU to the list of people i send my SAT scores too.
wooo.
tomorrow night we are going to see 300 with lots of people hopefully.
huh.

pain..hm
so.
skating=ow
well. a little bit.
then dancing=some more little bit of ow...
NOW here is a funny story.
so today..me nate and zack were sent on errands by mr. g.
we went out to building five to deliver some stuff to ms. messina and mr. firestone...
then...we went out of building five..and nathan picked me up and flipped me upside-down..oye.
THEN we were almost safely back to the confines of mr. guelcher's room...when(dramatic chord) zack(who is six foot sumthin) decided it would be a good idea to pick up tiny little charr and run down that one outdoor corrider..well BLAT! poor zack tripped on his shoes. he got a skinned arm..and i got a bruised back.
once we were back on our feet...he picked me up and ran with me again JEEZ!
didnt fall down that time.
but anyways. that was pretty much my excitement for the day.
damn strait.
hmmmm.
yeah. thats pretty much.
it.
BAH!
hm.
no school tomorrow..fcat. so tour of FGCU.
and stuff.
hm.....
yeah. i think thats it. yay stuff!

da da DA!
whohaw.
here i am again.
sitting at my keyboard. pitter pattering away.
pitter patter.
well.
i applied to FGCU.
if i get accepted....minor in creative writing major in Theater.
how bout that.
IF i get accepted. i cant get too excited yet.
cuz then i will cry if i dont get accepted.
and i finally emailed walter about community service hours.
and stuff.
i need to find out the requirements for 100% bright futures.
and i need to go read my SAT book thing.
stuff.
i'll do good on my SAT not neccarilly better. as it is proved by the last two times i took it.
jeez.
okay.
and military ball is next week. and so is SAT....and 300 comes out. which looks crazy cool.
i will prabably cringe and hide in waynes armpit alot
gore=icky.
my knees hurt. to much sitting crosslegged at the computer.
chyeah.
soooo.
i.....
fell over alot today. well..after i got home....my pajama pants are out to get me. first i tripped on the bamboo. and then my pants got stuck on the cupbaord handle..and i fell down. it hurt. i laughed. i am graceful like that. fo sho.

well, my goodness
so. yesterday was sunday. which was geri's bday. lots of babies all weekend long...NO KIDDING!
the first thing Elizabeth did(geri's youngest one..that isnt still in the uterus) when i picked her up was grab my boob. i said HONK! and moved her hand.
cute babies..
and then later she decided it was a good idea to teethe on my finger...and then she started crying when i took my finger out of her little gummy mouth...
crispy baby.
still cute though.
agh. babies.
hilary's baby on the other hand(charlotte) does not cry...like at all. its crazy.

anywho....i saw Bridge to Terebithea yesterday evening with wayne geri and randal...and it made me and geri cry. but i knew i was going to cry because i read the book a long long time ago.
there is a book called chasing redbird that they should seriously make into a movie. its one of those younger reading directed kinda adult themed books.
crazy.
SO....i finished reading Frankenstein finally...and i have to say. i absolutely hate that book,
but i am one for happy endings...of some sort.
that book was ultimately way to depressing. everyone DIES! essentially. why do we have to read sad books in school. beowulf was sad too.
i didnt want to read after they killed all the people i liked....gah.
anywho....i think i am going to work on HW some more. because. yeah. that is what i have to do today. most definately.
and my parents are going to Marco Island to go see my aunt and uncle...but i cant go because i have HW....grrrr. i blame frankenstein. and it was MY desicion to stay home because i know i need to get stuff done. especially since i will be doing footloose on tues and on thurs...so i wouldnt have time to finish my essay for english on tues..which is due on wed. so i am doing it today.becaue i have a day off..and and days off are always nice nice nice...
my goodness. and if get a chance i am going to go to the skate park on rollerskate a bit. because i like rollerskating.
MY ARMS HURT BECAUSE The KEYBOARD IS AT A FUNNY ANGLE! OW!

well jeez
so i just got back from the movies.
cha.
we went and saw Ghost Rider...super fun. let's see...in our car(meaning waynes) there was marc jessica and troy. there was a lot of picking on people going on of course.
always is with that group of people. then megan and adam couldnt come because megan was sick.
but megan and shawn met up with us at the movies...and they wanted to hang out after but we couldnt cuz we had to get marc back because his madre was picking him up from troy's
troy is grounded from the computer because he copied his sisters old HW assignments and she told on him....
so no WoW for him for two weeks.
i dont see the point in that.
i mean he is smart enough to ace the tests even if he isnt doing his HW...whatever.
suppose i'll understand if i am ever a parent...
IF
have to do better on the SAT so i can get more Bright Futures coverage for..college...if i can find a college i want to go to that i can afford.
but no that is not going to happen.
so i am probably going to go to FGCU and not be happy. or something.
well no. i would still def be happy...but i want to go live in Ft Lauderdale and whatnot.
so whatever.
hmph.
most of my friends from here are going to FGCU..like troy boy.
starting to like dealing with footloose again.
tomorrow Hilary..from seventh grade is going to hang out with me..she has a baby. oomph. cha. wayne calls. i go.
love.

OMIGOSH
well hope bout this.
i am sitting at a brand NEW SHINY COMPUTER! OMIGOODNESS!
im excited.
now....when should i ask if i can install WoW on here...nervous laughter.
well
hmph.
oookay...i am TOTALLY having to choreograph for dance. well just for me and monica. i have about...ten seconds out of 1-2 minutes done.
WOOO!
okay,
must go do homework and take shower. NEW COMPUTER OMIGOODNESS!

huloooooo
well,
how bout them bears.
hm.. lets see.
where to start.
i am short. still.
still dont know where i am going to college.
BUT i am going to an open house on saturday. and have art in a show this weekend. getting judged.
:crosses fingers: yeah. im not really hopin much. never am.
erm. footloose is makin me miserable. becauase im a man who cant sing the solos because...i'm uh... FEMALE!!
still havent talked to ms messina about that.
dont know what to say even. im just greatly offended.
but whatever.
i am having alot of fun in dance though.
we are doing a dance to thriller...
super fun.
i get to do the mummy...lol...
hum.....
writing a story for aspiring authors award again. that is due on the feb 9th.
OH! i can do 100 situps a day(or 150) and 50 v-sits..which are crazy shit.
im proud of that.
2 years and nine months was two days ago.
and......wow..WoW still going like nobody's business.
gah!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
drinking is bad for you kids.
im watching Ugly Betty....
good stuff.

tired
sooooo yeah.
dance is fun so far.
i assume it will continue to be fun. really.
it was cool...i did 150 situps today. and twenty pushups. and i could actually do them. which is odd. cuz i dont do ANYTHING normally.
we just had to do that stuff for dance.
so.
callbacks for Footloose were today.
EVERYONE got called back. lots of reading.
i doubt i will get the part/s i would like to get. cuz i never do.
but last time messina cast me as someone i didnt want to be i had more fun with the roll than i would've with the ones i WANTED...so maybe she knows me better than i do.
wouldnt be tooo surprising.
and we have our new English teacher. which is cool. not that mrs. stevens is not our teacher..but the new teacher is cool. PARENTS are home.
YAY!

explode...
so. lots of shit is/was today.
footloose tryouts...fun!
singing and dancing my favorite! no really. it is...
aunt helen/uncle lloyd were in town..so mass wayne family dinner at the alva diner. my parents opted not to go...floor needs finished.
over all i am just depressed at the moment. for whatever reason. do i really have to have a reason.
well.
so.
ohio state vs florida...
ohio stats is of course going to win. but anyways...troy shawn parker=party. they didnt want me to come.
so wayne is going to watch football with his friends even though he doesnt give a DAMN about football...while i am watching football with my parents...
which isnt bad i love my parents.
i mean honestly i doubt i would have been allowed to go because it is a school night. but if they hadnt of cared if i came or not it would have been that big of a deal...
but they didnt fucking want me there.
fuck them.
fuck everyone who has ever fucking not wanted me around.
appearently....i'm in a shitty mood. ima go curl up in a tiny ball.
or take a shower or something.
maybe i am PMSing...that is a good excuse.
i love you guys. really. i do.

back to school...unfortunately
well.
tomorrow we are going back to school.
weeee.
right.
we have to remember to pick troy up on the way to school. it wouldnt be that amazing if we forgot you know.
yeah.
we wont i swear. i think he wouuld kill us if we did.
i feel bad jessica got grounded for staying out to late on new years eve.
and troy thinks she is not allowed to talk to him. its sad.
but....her parents called and told her to come home...then grounded her or something like that.
retarded. if they wanted her home earlier why didnt they CALL earlier.
brilliance.
i dont know the whole story though.
either way. that sucks for troy.
but other than that new years eve was fun.
we hung out at troy's and watched Little Man(super gay)...Grandma's Boy(still awesome) and You, Me and Dupree(it was okay)
and then jessica got in trouble...because it was three in the morning...orclose to it...maybe past it i dont really remember.
and wayne said he was too tired to drive me home...so i stayed the night at his house. and then we stayed up till almost five on WoW...or wayne did. i kinda fell asleep before he did. i got to sleep in his bed and he had to sleep on the chaise lounge (haha). his bed is still super comfy.
and then we slept until noon and his grandparents weren't home when we woke up.
and then i stayed there till like eight or so....or later? i dont remember. and then came home.
but that was fun. i like spending the night at waynes. and i might get to do it later this month again..but i dont know yet. ya know.
cuz parentals are going up to ohio.
yum
anywho. tomorrow we go back to school. and thanks to troy(and some other factors) i no longer know what i want to do with my life.
i really dont. and i really dont know how to deal with that revelation..and almost cried on wayne (sorry lovey) but instead watched star trek.
so. tomorrow i have to try to get into a dance class for my phys ed credit..and i dont know if it will work.
buggers.
ya. im done now.
really dont want to go back. evil high school. EVIL!

cha cha cha
today was fun.
we went bowling. and i played on the computer.
yay!
and waynes kilt is almost done! or at least done enough to let him see it
just will have to make fastening thingers for it.
after we know how it will fit and whatnot
wooooo
hm
errrrr.
i think i am kinda hungry. but i might just go to bed instead.
tonight we hung out with troy and his gf.
bowling. we all went..and then got ice cream. it was fun.
appearently i am like the only ex of troy's that jessica likes...or at least that is what she says when im there
lol.
im also like one of (if not the only)of troy's ex's who isnt/wasnt in rotc.
amber was there at bowling appearently jessica doesnt like amber.
i think it's all very funny
:yawn:
i ought to go to bed. need to brush teeth as usual. might dye my hair tomorrow. if i get around to it which i probably wont...because...i'll be making a kilt..and then going to waynes...and playing on the computer.
i like having a wow account.
it really cuts down on the sexual activity between me and wayne.
because we are in two different rooms of the house....and doing our own things.
sometimes wayne will play with me. but not today. i dont know why he didnt want to today.
in fact. that kinda pisses me off now.
but i'm over it.
whatever. things my world revolves around....wayne...uh..wayne...some more wayne. its all about wayne.
oh...and me.
its a little bit about me.
HA.

will you marry me....
:yawns:....
wow.
hm.
okay.
im 18 now. no big difference...other than buying wayne a buddha lighter. i wonder where that ended up. he better not lose it.
but if he does. ...
oh well.
almost done with the boy's kilt. he ought to like it.
he bought me a wow account for xmas.
sweet.
does that make me a full fledged nerd yet?
not quite. it's not on my own personal computer.
something i've been thinking about lately...... my purse would not make a good weapon.
a lighter...pack of camel menthols, some braces rubber bands...and a peice of paper....
i dont think that would do much dammage if someone tried to attack me.
course not.
so hopefully if someone attacks me i'll be wearing a pair of stillettos i can do some dammage with.. other than that i think i would be abso-bloody-lutely defenseless.
super tired.
didnt really do anything today. well..besides made part of a kilt..and played a hell of a lot of WoW(for me)
don't want to go back to school. have to work on the whole PE/dance thing. got into an "argument" with wayne about that. meh.
i'm always right.
(no that is NOT really my thought process) freakin guidance counselors. boo. i don't want to do with that mumbo jumbo. and i dont know what i am going to do 7th pd. i dont know if i want to take photography or not.
probably. i think zack is in there seventh next sem.
i need a shower. and to brush my teeth. i feel icky.
:yawn and stretch:
penis.

yawn
so last night was fun.
we carved pumpkins and went to movies...woot. we saw The Prestige again.
well for nate and megan it was their first time.
so yeah.
coolness
then we went home...pretty much yeah.
but it was def fun.
i am def tired still.
last night there was a thunderstorm..that was WEIRD! and made me not sleep well. then i woke up early.
ish.
and my wings are partly done. but mine and waynes masks are not.
bleh.
yeah. so definately a halloween party on tuesday totally cool.
goddamn. i have to mow in the morning...so i can help pay for dinner.
two and a half years in two days. hot damn...thats what i say. so we are going to bahama breeze.
hopefully it will be fun.
hopefully.
no. i think it will be.
idk why i made this anniversery a big deal...none of the others have been. yeah.
and stuff.
so i guess i am done for now. TALK.
my wings are BIG! can't wait till they are done.
yeah. and stuff. woot.
dont know what i am doing tonight yet. waiting for wayne to call. getting bored. never a good sign. nope nope.
hmmmmmm

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